Saturday, November 25, 2006 . 5:55 PM

Afterall... issit just the 15 year old teenage crisis?

I don't know.

I know im stupid

Forgive me

Am i just afraid?

Am i the one whos avoiding?

I don't know.

I know im stupid

Forgive me

How i wish things were back before

How i wish my life was simpler

It isnt simple to get a simple life

I know

but im still stupid

Forgive me.

Letting go is good

Though the results are untold

After the let-go

Whether it's teenage crisis

Or the purest and the truth

The answers will reveal

How stupid

Forgive me

Thursday, November 23, 2006 . 9:39 AM

Lol, expecting me to post about someone right? U wait lah hor, lol, wait until ah the earth spin like beyblade also dont have ah..

Haiz, so many fans keep on kajiaoing me, update update, xiang wo zhe zhong chao ji ju xing, dont have time de ah... Everyday i must move house ah, coz the fans check my address check very fast ah, and keep on disturbing me ah. Haiyaya...

Wondering why the song changed from so happy de, become so sad de? My blog song changes with my mood ba... Im fighting a hard battle... Lol.

I cannot talk abt my personal life or where i go, wad did i do, u noe... the fans will camp there and wait for me and disturb me again... 真是的呀.. 人太红就是那么头痛的呀.. 真想回到从前那种平凡人生活呀..

K lah, dao tou lai, i rlly have nth to post abt.... Jiu post abt her la. Since "L" show so many people wad i sent him during the wednesday iceskate, i might as well post it right here.

Although i myself know that i do not have much hope, but i still like to try. (Never see coffin never drop tears), i know, lol. But, I'm liddat. Even if the answer is really negative, i hope we will still be friends, although i myself noe, to her im a friend, to me she's not tt simple. Unexpectedly, she's very strong, and not afraid to face difficulties, living life positively and happily, despite the things around her. But, human is human, there's definitely a time when one becomes soft and weak, about to collapse. I will like to be the one, always there, for her to lean on. I know, im selfish. People say no, and yet i still do this. But, i think, it will be one of my life's deepest regret, if i choose to walk off and dont stay beside her. 我愿意用我的命去守护, 为了她, 我可以连命都不管, 对我而言, 拿她的命和我的命比起, 我希望我微不足道的这条命, 能够为她做一些事。

I was thinking.... it's better if she said no. I know, im not good enough, lol. For the first time 我学会 自知之明。She has better choices, definitely. And even if she has noone in mind, it's better for her to pursue her studies for now. Either way, it's good for her. I will try hard to tell myself tt it's better for me too. As Joanne says, “我要坚强的活下去”。我会的，别担心。Anyway, i know she wont read my blog, so tts why i dare to write these, lol. For my fans out there, of coz, i trust u. I will like to walk the way i want to walk, so.. I hope my fans dont intefere. If I need your help, definitely, i will call you up, dont worry.

Lastly, thank you 二弟，二弟的好朋友，大哥，大嫂，红色玫瑰，我的女儿，还有SUNNY。我会回到从前的我的，别担心。

Thursday, November 09, 2006 . 7:29 PM

Joanne requested for me nt to blog all those depressin stuff or chim stuff, casual yi dian. Most of my classmates de blog all posted abt P2. So of coz, i must follow the trend. In addition, my fans all hope for me to post something new. So of coz, i must answer to their demands, 谢谢粉丝的支持!! Aniway, since my blog too depressing, so i put a relaxin song, for ppl to calm down. =)

Chooi Teng : The dancer who always tease me one lah, wah lao. On par with me, Li hai lor..... Get into Trilingual digest lor, shuang lor... lol

Xiu Ming : Xiao Song's GOOD FRIEND. Voice very deep leh.... K lah, quite nice lah

Lin : My ho peng you, if compare among all the girls, then is my very ho peng you. Justin Tek Hong. She ah.... problem alot. Always show me she's sad, then refuse to tell me wad happened, haiz.

Xintian : I say harlo, say yo, reply me "zuo mo?" Help her nvr say thank you lor. Have special pian jian on me, dunno why. Lol. K la, still will help me sometimes, good.

Yi Xian : The study and work hard type who has devotion towards Volleyball and Christianity. Er, abit over sensitive, and over considerate.

Peiyi : Bear kerm. Also study study type. Loanshark in class. Nvr pay class fund, then she will use her stare to make u pay, har har har! Lol.

Natalie : Han Su Yin, Han Swing. Pro artist. Generous too, treat me slurpee de, hehe. Will suddenly gives funny funny de comments.

Illy Dinah : Fashionable, trendy, hip, very smart.

Izni : Zaiyeong's favourite talk partner. She's friendly and easy to talk with, also quite enthu

Janice : Tag team with Chooi Teng to tease me. Always blur blur one. Abit worry too much.

Le Ting : Always fight (as in verbal and friendly fight) with me, suan my Humanities. Mus be more carin towards other ppl feeling, I may not do much, or show much reactions, but other ppl will mind it alot. =)

Rui Yan : Act cute. Like to go home. Talks in a very funny tone. Free charge for MRT / Bus.

Carlyn : Another problematic. Ladder. You lie to me ah, aiya, impossible de lah, im M leh, how can get deceived. Free charge for MRT / Bus

Maureen : Always call me fishball. Dunno much ba, she jus enjoys company with Shimin, in class, Madelene. Good artist too, help us design banner, hehe.

Melissa : Full name = Melissa Owen. Good friends with Natalie and Xintian. Helpful. Honest.

Nina : Dion's favourite. Wa lao i rlly failure, know her for 3 years still dunno wad to talk abt her. Her English is pro.

Nuraisha : Hongwei's favourite. Very supportive and outgoing. Mild violence. Rather enthu in class. Good.

Yu Hong : CHeeeerrry ( i mean her hairstyle). Always associated with DT / I. Also Free charge for MRT / Bus. Always with Zhiyu. Chem Pro.

Madelene : SORRY!!! TT DAY I RLLY DIN MEAN IT! Aiya, i say people not careful with words, actually i worst. Haiz. Er, associated with Alvin. English Pro. Shy with Chinese.

Jasmine : Responsible vice chairman and emaths rep. Super helpful. Pro with Html. Outgoing. But rather quiet. Must talk more.

Siti Aisyah : Amina. Very smart. Looks like typical housewife (lol).

Fairus : Er, always busy with DMC. Very cheerful. Good friends with Aisyah? I dunno. Lol.

Diyana : I know her even lesser... also quite fashionable.

K E R R O N G : Sms me to scold me straight in the face (kind intentions, i dont mean quarrel). Very honest, but sometimes, over sensitive, over considerate.

Zhi Yu : Always busy with DMC. The bowling alley manager of Palm Garden (Jkin, i meant, help the bowlers of P2 book one)

Tiffany : Typical sunny girl. Nice to talk to.

Amirul : Cool ah this guy. Very into Anime and Japan. Abuses the word "emo". Humanities pro. Candle guy.

Alvin : Wa hot ah this guy, real hot and noisy when comes to class, but inside he's quite fragile and emotional. Meh Meh Version 2. It's jus tt he's abit shorter and fitter and into soccer.

Dion : 1st thing, Free charge for MRT / Bus. Always kena bully or teased, dunno why. Quite cool, quite shuai, and shld be a good talkin partner

Justin : Abuses the word spastic. Not bad lah, in soccer. Very into Kingdom Hearts. Slightly pervertic.

Lendl : Our very helpful responsible chairman who owns a Mercedes! A CAR of his own! Lol, jkin. Too nice liao lah he. But he always go out with his *** friends. I dont mean Yikai and Raymond =).

ZuoKun : Very quiet on the surface, but everything he has something short comment abt. Quite lame lah. Tallest. Best GK. Hardworking.

Afiq : Super smart. 100% based on self knowledge and talent, and managed to pass so many subject. Very friendly.

Hidayat : Pro in soccer. Very funny. Gambling Soldier, hehe, always get caught by me. Not bad in bowling too. Volunteers to work, like a big brother, in cls activities.

JiaWei : Jia Jia Liang Teh. Jiawei, i know i very shuai, but pls don keep saying it. K lah, actually u on par with me lah, since we friends so long liao, then i regard u as equally shuai lah, haha. Pro in studies, responsible too.

William : Cool sia. The cool ducky with the farni hairstyle. Same as Xin Tian, always reply "Zuo mo?". K la, not very the study type, quite outgoin.

Zaiyeong : One of my best male friend in class. Always supporting. But abit slacky, and less participative in "political" isuses in our class. Nice to talk to, be it serious talk or casual talk.

Huan Song : Our functions head, the Auntie... Very knowledgeable and interested in religion and arts. Quite nice to talk to also.

Zach : BaBoon... very helpful, often puzzled over why people can turn a closed eye towards needy people. But he's abit gullible, six frags in a row lehzz..

Hongwei : Rich Rich. Goes for the extraordinary and "Xuan" things (xuan means eye catching). Humorous. Cheerful. Helpful.

Weiliang : Ticokia. Very outgoing, and very nice to go out with. He is very sad over the class, bcoz some people in the class are too practical. He feels tt way.

Fatin : Nice to talk to also. Good friends with Aisyah. Rather smart. Helpful.

Maybe...... i explain abit more on the practical part ba... i do not have exact evidence to prove tt u r practical, but so long u know it, pls feel guilty. U are not to judge ur friends by academic results. If you think their attitude towards work is bad, and they do not have the student mindset, and u are scared they will influence u, pls do not make any friends, for u do not deserve to. U r jus a selfish and stupid fella who shld go live on ur own. Yes, if u think u r right to say they provide a bad influence, but SO WHAT? SO WHAT, IM ASKING! Whos the one who does nt have the stability to withstand the influence? WHO?!

If u think "i admit i don haf enuf stability, so the best way is i do not get close at all", do u know how painful it is to be rejected by people? U think he asked for it, and u think u r right to think liddat? That is why i say u don deserve to haf friends. If so, ur friends now have problems, and u jus escape, bcoz u wont get dragged inside? Utterly selfish. Everybody is selfish in this world, i know! That does not give u the excuse to be selfish to that extent. Everybody is selfish in this world, the pun that lies here is, not everybody is VERY selfish, or UTTERLY selfish in this world! U simply misunderstood it.

In desperate circumstances, scientifically speaking, food air and water are the neccessities. But, if i were to make a comparison between "academic results, the future ahead" and "acceptance by others", acceptance will be ranked much much MUCH higher. U jus don understand how much damage u r inflicting, how u have mould ur friend's mindset. I dunno if such ppl exist in class, but since Weiliang mentioned it, i think it's still nt too late for me to talk abt all these.....

Sorry lah, my fans, my lao mao bing come again, talk depressedly and chimly. Sorry.....