Wednesday, March 28, 2007 . 7:54 PM

Well.. recently quite down (again eh? Lol). Not about those issues that I once were troubled of. More like… Breeze. Yes, breeze. LISTEN TO MY BLOG SONG AS U READ ON. Then u will feel wad im feeling now.

Erm… why breeze ah… Well, just when everyone breezes past me, I feel more and more down. Everyone had their certain direction of life. I have too. But u see… some decide to devote all for CCA, some decide to pia all the way for the O levels. It is good to have a few friends of yours to share the same direction of life eh? Just that my friends go on different directions of life… I am to blame for being a weird person. I tried to learn to devote for my CCA, but I can’t. I cannot say why, bcoz things wont change, so theres no point. For studies… nah, going for that isn’t my cup of tea. I have far more important things (to me). Life is like… a breeze. Breezes past me, leaving me lost. As everyone sway to their direction of wind, I stay stagnant, not knowing where to go. The cold breeze makes me feel empty.Omg, this isn’t like what I am in school man. A superstar shouldn’t expose too much of own emotional struggles. Or else my fans will worry too much for me. Haiz. The coming days there will be bouquets of roses (not white chrysanthemum) and cards to wish me well. Don’t always liddat my fans, don’t waste money on me anymore. The concert ticket oready $899 liao. It’s enough. I don’t want u all to start worrying about me. Certain things… I have to settle it myself.

Perhaps… people are right say that friends aren’t forever. Well, perhaps, not even 5 years. Forever, eternity are just big words that does not fit to what I feel. Pretty sad. To reflect on the timeline, we seemed to have lost a lot of the past “farni events” and “stunts”. Things became… more and more quiet now. The tranquility makes me feel… alone. The world seemed to be pitch black. I’m in the midst, floating in the emptiness, stuck in nowhere. I just cannot accept certain facts, perhaps im stubborn, perhaps im soft, I just don’t want to accept.

Life should be a breeze that you can close your eyes and feel it blow past. Enjoy it. Walk against its direction if you must. Nobody has set a custom way that u must pass. This is your story. Choose the way of no regrets. Decide what is the best for yourself. Surface benefits, Spiritual benefits, Material benefits. Life has no meaning, if you are going the same conventional, “play-safe” way, that everyone else is taking. It’s the risks for your ultimate goal, that makes life… a cooling breeze. This is jus a piece of advice for my fans. If you aren’t my fan, well, you can choose not to follow it =).