Thursday, November 23, 2006 . 9:39 AM

Lol, expecting me to post about someone right? U wait lah hor, lol, wait until ah the earth spin like beyblade also dont have ah..

Haiz, so many fans keep on kajiaoing me, update update, xiang wo zhe zhong chao ji ju xing, dont have time de ah... Everyday i must move house ah, coz the fans check my address check very fast ah, and keep on disturbing me ah. Haiyaya...

Wondering why the song changed from so happy de, become so sad de? My blog song changes with my mood ba... Im fighting a hard battle... Lol.

I cannot talk abt my personal life or where i go, wad did i do, u noe... the fans will camp there and wait for me and disturb me again... 真是的呀.. 人太红就是那么头痛的呀.. 真想回到从前那种平凡人生活呀..

K lah, dao tou lai, i rlly have nth to post abt.... Jiu post abt her la. Since "L" show so many people wad i sent him during the wednesday iceskate, i might as well post it right here.

Although i myself know that i do not have much hope, but i still like to try. (Never see coffin never drop tears), i know, lol. But, I'm liddat. Even if the answer is really negative, i hope we will still be friends, although i myself noe, to her im a friend, to me she's not tt simple. Unexpectedly, she's very strong, and not afraid to face difficulties, living life positively and happily, despite the things around her. But, human is human, there's definitely a time when one becomes soft and weak, about to collapse. I will like to be the one, always there, for her to lean on. I know, im selfish. People say no, and yet i still do this. But, i think, it will be one of my life's deepest regret, if i choose to walk off and dont stay beside her. 我愿意用我的命去守护, 为了她, 我可以连命都不管, 对我而言, 拿她的命和我的命比起, 我希望我微不足道的这条命, 能够为她做一些事。

I was thinking.... it's better if she said no. I know, im not good enough, lol. For the first time 我学会 自知之明。She has better choices, definitely. And even if she has noone in mind, it's better for her to pursue her studies for now. Either way, it's good for her. I will try hard to tell myself tt it's better for me too. As Joanne says, “我要坚强的活下去”。我会的，别担心。Anyway, i know she wont read my blog, so tts why i dare to write these, lol. For my fans out there, of coz, i trust u. I will like to walk the way i want to walk, so.. I hope my fans dont intefere. If I need your help, definitely, i will call you up, dont worry.

Lastly, thank you 二弟，二弟的好朋友，大哥，大嫂，红色玫瑰，我的女儿，还有SUNNY。我会回到从前的我的，别担心。